Someday

It has been a very trying week, month, year. I really don't know when it all started. But I have a glimmer of hope that things have turned the corner. Adjustments to schedules, added work, more responsibilities. Perhaps I needed to find my stride and settle in. Some times it is just too much to handle.

Music for me is a wonderful way to express my feelings and gives me inspiration and hope. This past month I came across in fact a top 40 song, that I actually like. It was resounding 'loudly' from my daughters bedroom and something about it just stuck. So I clicked and dragged it from her playlist to mine and have listened to it most everyday since. Perhaps is was a way of someone saying, 'listen up'.

So...maybe someday we'll figure all this out
Try to put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to make things better now that
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow someday

'cause sometimes we don't really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over again



I shared with someone the other day who was feeling a bit low. I said, 'most days I just have to take it a minute, a second, a day at a time. I realize that I am grateful for a my faith, my health, my family, my home, and just what I need TODAY. I don't have it all figured out. But what I do know is I am OK for TODAY. Someday is someday, but TODAY is TODAY!

P.S. And TODAY was a great day. Carpets cleaned and look BRAND NEW! Haircut/color, manicure and pedicure, and lunch at my favorite place. Now if I could only have ONE more day, I would watch movies all day in my pjs and fulfill creativity bucket scrapbooking the day away. Well, may be not tomorrow, but 'someday'.

Back on the gravy train I go. ONLY $14K left to go to hit $100,000. Track meet in Iowa City. Chocolate chip cookies, an early morning bike ride, and reconnecting with my housekeeper.

But until that day comes I plan to enjoy the last few hours of TODAY, in my pjs, wrapped cozy in a blanket. surrounded by those I love the most.

a blink

a blink and then it is gone. that is exactly how my life feels at the moment. monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday, sunday, gone...

we are hitting our stride being the busiest season of our year with track meets, dance performances, swim team fast approaching, and end of the year school events. my days fly by in a blink and then they are gone.

a track meet this week, brought a beautiful afternoon in the sunshine, no wind and a PERFECT 70 degree day. kennedy had a personal best in her open 400 at 65 seconds. as we walked out to the van to grab some water, she started asking just how fast i thought she could go this year. with eagerness and hope, 'do you really think i could get down to the low 60s?' with increased confidence and one more year of growth under her belt, we are seeing a young lady blossom into a confident competitor. and a blessing this year to be injury free.

with minutes to spare we raced from one event to the next. madison's last elementary vocal concert. we were entertained as we enjoyed songs from all different countries and even one about becoming a teenager. can i believe they are really that old? the answer being, no!

swimming, biking, and running every day, preparing for our triathlon debute June 26th. milo tends to ride about 1/2 mile in front of me and with some miscommunication and a few sharp turns, one turned left and the other turned right one night, but luckily we ended back where we started.

surgery is on the horizon for mr. milo. a little too much heavy weight lifting has caused an inguinal hernia. after brushing off the dust of my nursing back ground, confirmed with some internet searching, the final diagnosis came the following day when dr. janda, walked in the room and said, 'so you think you have a hernia? lets take a look?' with a shock and awe, he responded, 'whoa! there fella, that is most definitely a hernia.' i made sure that was all he was referring to, given the thing is the size of an extra large egg! stay tuned. we hope it doesn't interfere with the triathalon in june.

kate gosselin got the boot....thank you!

so it only took me 3 months to sell $100,000 of business. i thought it fun to challenge myself to see if i could then sell $100,000 in ONE month. now that i am starting to hit my stride and figure this whole thing out. so with $48,000 placed, only $52,000 left. i knocked off $10,000 more today and anticipate for sure another $12,000 off by the end of the day Monday. leaving me to drum up, hmmm...$30,000 by the end of next week. well with 11 appointments on the books, it might just happen. stay tuned! i am focused like a laser beam!

working tomorrow, being it is my weekend on. monday and tuesday are filled with selling appointments and some more swimming, biking, and running. wednesday i am off to supervise an all day carpet cleaning venture from top to bottom, plus a much needed haircut and color. thursday brings more selling appointments, a track meet in iowa city, and a welcome back party for the housecleaner. friday a sprint to the finish, $100,000! plus a bit more swimming, biking, and running. saturday...well may be a day to celebrate! cause afterall, in a blink...it is gone!

bye!

My O! My

why do weekends go by so fast?

I believe the working world is all messed up. I bet if I surveyed the average 40 hour/week employee, I would find at least 1 - 2 hours of their day is wasted in one way or another. Meaning that everyone is not being 100% productive every hour and minute they are at work. So then why is it necessary to spend 40 of those precious hours every week at your employment?

In my opinion work days should be no longer than 6 hours, with an opportunity to grab a quick 15 minute refuel on food. Get the work done and get out, is my motto! Life is too precious to spend long hours away from home and away from the people that matter the most.

And so most of my weekend was spent doing all of the necessary chores needed to make the next 5 days flow effortlessly. Wash completed, floors clean, groceries fetched, meals prepared in advance, and bills paid.

I so need to do something about this situation. Becasue... if given a really cute tiara, I am pretty sure I COULD change the world!

However.. in the mean time...Hi..Ho..Hi..Ho...it is back to work I go.

Opening Day.

Linn Mar Track Meet. First meet of the season. Nothing like a beautiful spring afternoon, a sleeveless shirt, sunglasses, and a track meet. Makes me feel like dancing!




Kennedy did a great job. Long Jump 14.2, 1st in the 4X800 (anchor leg), 1st in the sprint medley (400m at 67 sec), and 1st in the 4X400 (anchor leg, 68 sec)





We capped of the evening with a trip to Dairy Queen to celebrate opening day. Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday. I can't wait for a 'sleep in day'.

night.

selfish?

Ever just have one of 'those' days? The taxes are $700 more than you were initially told. You come home after a 12 hour day to find cereal encrusted bowls, left over lunch dishes, and bread crumbs littering the counter tops. The dog pees on the floor because no one is bothering to let her out. The expectations you had set for family support are not up held. The laundry basket from now 5 days ago is STILL sitting in the hallway despite repeated attempts to have it put away. You spend the next 2 hours doing laundry, picking up shoes, socks, towels, flip flops, and everything else that is strewn all over. It is too exhausting to ask for help. It is just easier to do it ALL yourself. You miraculously find a way to float that $700 in your check book until pay day in 2 weeks . Afterall it is just assumed that you will fix it. Somewhere in the midst of it all you remember the Bible study you read this morning on 'love is not selfish'. You wonder if by having a 'poor me attitude', if that is considered being selfish? Considering everything up to this point it is easier to error on the side of selfishness. With an hour before bed, you manage a shower and a moment to sit and dump your brains, before accidentally hitting some key that erases most everything you just dump.

goodnight. Because at this point it is best to get to tomorrow as quickly as possible, for tomorrow is a NEW day!

Today

Today I was kinder to my husband and children.

Today I listened more to what others were saying.

Today I laughed at the silly stuff.

Today I was kinder to myself.

Today I realized that success is not always attained when others are watching you work, but rather success is of often times based on what you do when no one is watching.

Today I rode my bike 8 miles.

Today I enjoyed homemade pizza, which is better than any pizza you can order in.

Today I hugged my husband more.

Today I was not defeated.

Today I courageously advanced.

jill

Patience

Today I worked on patience.

Patience when my oldest woke up 30 minutes late, potentially making me late for work.

Patience when after after my 5th selling appointment in the last two weeks, to be told, 'I will call you next week'.

Patience when the dude grab my parking spot, that I was waiting patiently for at the health club.

Patience when the clothes basket that I asked 5 days ago to be put away, still sat in the hallway at 7:00 pm.

Patience when I realize that I could use another 2 hours to my day and being satisfied with knowing that I gave 100% to the hours I was given.

Patience in watching Kate Gosselin dance again.

Don't give me no trouble.

I'm in my pink bubble.

I came to the realization the other day that I deeply missed my pink bubble. My pink bubble represents a positive attitude, a life lived on faith, not fear, and a passion to make a difference EVERY day in some one's life. None of the above I was exhibiting, nor had I been for quite some time.

Back in the day part of my pink bubble experience required me to to don a suit and nylons daily. 'Dress for success' was the motto. And so I did. Eventually the nylons took a back seat to dress pants and somewhere along the road so did my attitude and passion for life.

Stifled by the everyday grind of 8 - 5 and being influenced by negative people, before I knew what had happened I was beginning to live a life of scarcity thinking and negativity.

Then something happened. On a whim last week, I decided to drag out one of those old business suits and a pair of nylons. I dressed for success and as the day progressed something happened. Something clicked that made me realize how much I had been living in fear and not faith. Somewhere between skirts and pants, negativity had gotten the best of me. How passive I had become to just going through the motions and not really living my life.

Then ironicly or not with the light bulb moment came the start of a new book, Fearless by Max Lucado. In preparation for a sermon series that is starting next week, I started reading this weekend. Max goes onto to say, 'Fear unleashes a swarm of doubts, anger stirring doubts. And it turns us into control freaks. Fear at it's center, is a perceived loss of control. When life spins wildly, we grab for a component of life we can manage: our diet, the tidiness of a house, or in many cases, people. The more insecure we feel, the meaner we become. We growl and bare our fangs. Why? Because we are bad? In part. But also because we feel cornered.

Have I not become an out of control, control freak, lashing out at those I love the most? All because fear and negativity had gripped my very being.

And so I have decided that I will no longer be gripped by fear, but rather live by faith. Not to let the nay Sayers and negative Nellie's of life drive my attitude or passions. That life has not dealt me a hand of cards that will prevent me from living out my purpose and passion.

Could there really be some power in a pair of nylons? Or may be it just took a flash from the past for me to realize that there is power in a positive attitude and excitement in living a life of faith.

So don't give me no trouble, I am in my PINK bubble!

until tomorrow.

P.S. I rehired my housecleaner!